Discomfort
I will admit that one thing I dislike about being a person without any sort of faith is that I feel sort of empty in that I lost belief in any and all magic. Losing your religion you also lose the ability to gaslight yourself into thinking someone or something else is in control and pulling strings in your life and therefore you don't need to worry about anything. Losing the mindset of, 'things always work out like they are supposed to,' is very logical but it is also pretty scary. I do miss being able to feel a sort of connection to nature and the universe. That is something I am almost desperate to get back. But, I find it very difficult when my brain is so determined to remind me that I am just a member of a species of primate with a very finite life on a rock hurtling through space. That can feel pretty bleak. And I have been feeling pretty down lately. I miss when I used to be able to self soothe by telling myself some bullshit. I have developed such black and white t...