Feeling A Little Lost

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I found this list the other day and I decided to save it. It took me over 30 years to get through the first two stages of this list. I spent the last year on stage three and I flew through stage four in about three weeks time. Now I find myself wallowing a bit in stage five. You know, where everything you thought you knew and everything you used to believe; to cling to, to use as a basis of explaining everything, is gone. Things feel a tad confusing. I feel a little lost and disillusioned. Like I still don't know what everything is, but I am confident I know what everything ISN'T. 

So I'm going to sit with that for a bit. 

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