The Red Pill

I feel so fucking woke tonight. So fucking woke. The definition of woke changes depending on who you ask. For me, feeling woke means that I have snapped out of it! Meaning I am now standing on the outside of indoctrination and looking in at it. Like I have literally left the Matrix. 

I see all kinds of things I never did before. I see some people doing everything they can to try and advance humans as a species. Trying to guide us forward towards our next version in the evolutionary process. Trying to work us towards being a little more civilized. I also see some people digging in their heels, feeling threatened and doing everything in their power to prevent any further advancement as a society. They place a tremendous amount of value in things like traditions and nostalgia. 

The more I pay attention the more it is clear that we're not there yet. Humans are largely not ready for that next step. It's too scary. There's still too much of a tendency to cling to tribal behaviors. Still too much of an automatic response to attack each other over trivial things, mostly based on the want to either preserve things as they are or change how things are. We're not ready. 

How else do I know? Religions. People are not ready to consider existing without a god. As humans we truly are cursed because we're aware of our finite lives. We know that one day we will die and that's terrifying for most people. So terrifying that they had to create a type of reality wherein this life is only temporary. It's easier to swallow that death pill if you are convinced there's more. I'm coming to the conclusion that for a lot of people, religion is all about comfort. The thought of there not being a purpose or a plan and there not being an afterlife is a place many people are not willing to go. They would rather be wrong having lived thinking there was a heaven than fearing there might not be. The ole Pascal's Wager line of reasoning.

I'm not condemning it. I'm just understanding it. Making an observation. Taking it into consideration as a way to better grasp the human experience. But to me that just shows that as a people, we are not ready collectively to advance our species. We've made some strides but we're still quite primitive. 

I still have a lot of questions. I still wonder. I have always been a girl full of wonder and that will never change. It's who I am. I wonder about the cosmos. I wonder about consciousness. Is it just electrical impulses in our brains or is there more to it? See now, instead of trying to fit anything I don't understand into a framework of it being supernatural and trying to explain it that way, I am finding a way to always be open to more information. I'm learning how to be open and inquisitive. To be willing to change how I see something, understand something and my opinions about something based on being presented with new information. 

Not being tied to a theology has really allowed me to explore all sorts of things, some of which I had previously held different beliefs about! It's endlessly fascinating. The world is my oyster, so to speak. And nothing is off limits to explore and learn. Now, THAT'S woke.