Mom is Bugged

Mom is going through some stuff right now. She is going to be losing her parents soon. It is only a matter of time for her mother. So even though she has a level of understanding about where I am in my life, there is a part of her that is struggling with it because of where she is in HER life. She doesn't want to be confronted with my thoughts about the possibility of there not being an after life, for example. I'm not saying there's nothing after this. I am saying I don't know if there is or not. However, at this point I am convinced that the Christian heaven and hell don't exist. We probably go wherever we were before we were born; which is either somewhere or nowhere. 

One thing about talking to my mother is that she is not great at listening. She doesn't listen to hear, she listens to respond. She isn't as open to discussion as she thinks she is. I haven't even really been able to say enough or explain my thoughts and feelings about all of this. She doesn't let me finish a sentence before interrupting me and interjecting her thoughts and opinions. In fact, she has heard just enough to make her over think and assume, because she has yet to let me finish a thought in a conversation. She literally interrupts every thought I try to express. 

I have decided that we are going to table this topic for a few years. Maybe we can revisit it at some point, but I recognize the timing is not good for her and I also need to better plan how to articulate so that she can't so easily derail my point. I was hoping with her I would feel understood but the actual experience has been quite the opposite. It's okay. I need to read the room better.