Sometimes I Want to Scream

I am on the other size of my deconstruction at this point. There's no going back. I feel fine about it. But I am increasingly irritated by people who are hopelessly caught up in their beliefs. People who make all of their decisions based on the way they view the world through the lens of religion. People have the right to believe whatever they want, but as someone on the "other side" of it all, I get really annoyed when I see people using their religion as a crutch, an excuse, and justification for absolutely everything. 

It becomes increasingly more absurd to me when people always attribute good things happening in their life as gifts and blessings from god. I can remember feeling the exact same way, but now I am able to see just how self-centered it is and frankly, how little sense it makes. 

If there is a bad hurricane in one part of the world that devastates an area and kills people and animals in droves and on the same day, at the same time, somewhere else, a Christian couple gets married and the weather is picture perfect, they see that as God's favor. They prayed for good weather and they got it! Never mind all of the Christians that died in the hurricane. It was "their special day."

It's funny how god is never blamed when something bad happens, but he is always thanked when something good happens. Even trivial little things like winning a little league game. God is making sure Timmy gets a home run but can't be bothered to stop little Jenny from her Uncle raping her, at that very same hour. Sounds legit. What a loving god with super amazing priorities. 

"Free will" is often the cry. But there are plenty of examples of god taking away people's free will. Pharaoh's hardened heart, anyone?

Anyway, the more I study the more I see that the Bible is complete and total bullshit. Just absolute garbage. No different than any other archaic belief system. No evidence to support ANY of the claims made. It's mythology, plain and simple. 

I am getting close to wanting to start talking about this with people, but I do fear what it would do to them, emotionally. Like, for example, I have an Uncle I would LOVE to have a discussion with , on this topic. Love it. He is one toxic mother fucker and uses religion to justify his behavior. I would LOVE to discuss that with him sometime. He would be HORRIFIED to learn I am an atheist. Horrified. He would blame my parents and my husband. It wouldn't be seen as me finally allowing myself to accept what I have deep down, always suspected about the Bible and God. He would have to find someone to blame. My "falling away" would have to have a party at fault.

Christianity has everything to do with ego. It is simply humans taking comfort in something to avoid accepting that this is all there is and at some point they will cease to exist in the same way they did prior to being born. They cling to the unverifiable notion of an afterlife. They cannot fathom the idea of them NOT existing. And they cling to it so tightly that they can't accept when others don't also fall for the same bullshit "promises."   

They way I feel about Christianity right now is this:

• It is holding us back as a species, from further evolving
• Evangelism should be illegal
• Church mission trips should be illegal. They are designed to further colonize and evangelize. Help, with a catch!
• There should be no mention of God on any government document or on currency and there should be no praying in government buildings, before a preceding.