Derealization, Kinda?

Deconstruction has brought me a lot of peace, but it has also changed everything. It has caused me to view everything differently. And, I mean EVERYTHING. One of my big takeaways has to do with reality and it is equal parts terrifying and comforting. I have concluded that nothing is real and at the same time, everything is real. Is that derealization? I don't know. I kinda don't think so, because the reality I am referring to is not the physical reality. I do not question the things I experience with my senses. I believe that I exist in a physical realm and that in that physical realm exists all manner of other people, plants, animals, etc. When I talk about reality, I mean all social constructs. I'm talking about society. I'm talking about all the things we've made up. Things like economics, math, religion, government, social hierarchy, social norms & etiquette, beauty standards, money; any and all ideologies. I am talking about day to day life. None of this is real. We made it all up. And when I say real, I mean they are things we decided and agreed upon, but are not a part of a natural existence on this planet. 

So, basically what I am talking about is, daily life. The daily grind. Everything that the people in power have taught us are important, but that actually mean nothing. None of it actually exists in the abstract. Currency was a concept that was invented by people and has been assigned an arbitrary value. And we have all agreed to this arbitrary value and it is the driving force of the world. It's interesting when you think about it that way.

So, things like money and religion and capitalism don't actually exist as actual things. They are just agreed upon ideas. And yet, they DO exist, due to the fact people believe they exist. At the end of the day, truth is never the end goal. The goals are cooperation and hierarchy and those go from the highest of highs in government and the corporate world and are true all the way down to establishing a pecking order among school children. 

I have been thinking about this and how it instills the notion that, how other people perceive us and our reputation are the most important thing. This creates self esteem issues and it perpetuates the idea that we should live our lives to drive other people's opinions of us. Then, it is used as a manipulation tactic by those in power. "Be a good worker." "Look a certain way." "Obey the Bible." "Keep up with the Jones's." It's all a ruse. 

Like pulling aside the veil, I live in this world but I am now able to see things from a new perspective. I now see that the only truth is that I was born and someday I will die. Most of the troubles (or what we are taught are our troubles) are very trivial and are connected to these man-made ideas. They aren't real and they don't truly matter. If everything is made up including God, then we can actually live however we choose. So, while I am subject to these man-made constructs, I don't have to take everything seriously. I don't have to get stressed out. Because none of this is real. It's all made up. Who cares?

My priorities have been ROCKED in the last two years. It has been liberating.